facesinthecrowd

woah my first post in ages. its quite a drastic change, more so then i imagined, but thts gd so far. work is suspiciously heavy, esp for politics and history. have a couple of gd aquaintances to get by. i think time is passing too fast tho, damn.

I had several dreams last night.
one of them I could remember was of the new uniform that the Army will be adopting- (I dreamt) it was in camouflage in various hues of blue. I remember feeling utterly disgusted and picturing Madonna in it

its a really good film, this one. and steve doesnt fail to deliver. what an awesome show.
remember when i said if i loved the words, the music and i'm willing to buy the dvd ,it has to be a heck of a film. well this one happens to be one of them. wonderful

i really identify with dan, God has given him the gift or endurance, as with me, and ive only just realized it recently (before i watched the show). once i realised that ,lots of things in life kinda fell into place, so many things make sense and its like i see now. wanna pay tribute to my God for that. thank you

I am quite miserable, images and sounds haunt, sadden and mock me. it happens when I am alone in the dark. those are the times when i want to be miserable. people say we all want to be happy, well suppose its a fallacy-not all the time. is that self pity ? depression? (depressed people want to be depressed) or just there so I can know what it is like to be happy?

funny, because all this goes away with the break of dawn, I am a person with immense verve in the day. Sometimes I feel like nothing can stop me. right now its weird writing about misery, when the sun is beating down like theres no tmr, but thts about how my life has been for as long as I remember. it troubles me sometimes when i think of this or the measure of hatred i have.

the weird thing abt people is that no matter how consistent a persons behaviour is with his overall percieved image, some circumstances may still elicit a completely unexpected action from the person, that can be no where near his/her predicted course of action, as formulated from previous experience or encounter with the person.

thats my opinion

damn its very stressful to prepare for overseas studies in the UK. that and i still have to deal with army and work is quite a wicked concuction.
i suppose i only start taking everything in and enjoying everything when im sitting in my dorm, with all the registrations, accounts and internet access... properly done. phfft.
my first foray into entire independence. congrats louis

this guy is wearing my style. arm accessories, shorter navy jacket ,white shirt and faded jeans

my cousins are getting married in quick succession ,i finally understand what its like for some people. i garnered a whopping 6 similar qns about when will i find a girlfriend, in one night.thts not including their speculation about my love life and sorts( i say speculation because i did not participate very much)
its usually like tht at gatherings but its just got worse this year cos almost everyone's hooking up.
im an extreme anomaly in my traditional (very)chinese family. even my mom's family from taiwan are not so chinese actually.

no im just pretending to be scott

killed me when he held lisa

The day when she becomes my secretary would be the day

pigs may fly (even if they be genetically modified ones)

oh God pls someone be senseless enough to do it.

ive always dreamt of being introduced along with this song. as the above song is played, i will make my entrance, like on stage or something. maybe on my 21s .

ok im a bit delirious cos i went to bike quite hard abt 20 mins aft my breakfast.
left me nauseous and dizzy but now its better. haha




this was the closest to the nicest ones. i mean the music ya

im convinced there are loads of treasures in my head.
i believe my brain is very active before i sleep, therefore i should prob hav a notepad beside my bed. i think of a lot of beautiful thoughts and words and its sad i cant rem them when i wake ( its my fault too because im too lazy to take note,i dont blame myself ,i mean who likes to spoil tht nirvana before you enter sleep- tht drowsy state of mind)

anw i saw subas in camp today, a first since i started workin in the same camp as him (if u exclude in the bus). he was in a jeep on patrol and telling one of his animated stories i could tell. in his zone again, even at work on duty, man i wish could go on like him nonstop.

on another note, i really liked john mccain's speech at naval academy anapolis. i read the whole damn thing and watched snipets of it. amazing

if you have a reason to serve your country in the force, john mccain couldnt have put it better in that speech.wish i could write and talk like that. really dead on.

also there was this time i was out with ashish and i was thinking aloud, yea he would vouch for me ,this one -" hey what happens to the groom's best girl friend or the bride's best guy pal when they get married? since the guy cant be a maid, or the lady a best man" and BAM next thing you know they are making a movie out of this ! MADE OF HONOR if im not mistaken ,pun on the word, staring patrick dempsey.

i was sitting in the toilet pooping and i was thinking to myself, "hey if i have all the money in the world, i'd love to dream a lot" . its quite ironic though cos money would buy me most things and you wont need to dream.

yea some things money wont get you.